Someone may need to read this.

wow wow wow. a lot is on my mind right now. It’s exam week right now and my mind is working double time to cram in everything that I should’ve learned weeks ago. I’m about to go home for a month and have a break, but right now, I have to get through exams. And while I’m on it, I have an exam in less than twelve hours, but here I am typing because I have too many thoughts to sleep. 

I need to release this. I’m currently thinking about depression. Guys, depression is not a game. It’s like a swirling black hole and you are fighting every minute to try to get out, but it keeps pulling you deeper and deeper. I have depression, but I have it under control for now, but someone who is very dear to me is struggling. So badly. It physically hurts me as I lay in my bed trying to focus on what I have in front of me tomorrow. I can’t even think about that right now because I am so worried. 

Depression is real. It can and will happen to anyone. Mental health is so important and I really don’t know how to stress that enough. Making sure that people understand mental health is important. Being educated is important. Getting help is important. Lending someone else help is important. Showing love to those suffering is important. 

One thing I have learned is that you cannot abandon those who are hurting. Leaving them hanging or leaving them feeling like they aren’t good enough is possibly the worst thing you can do. So many people who suffer feel like their depression is their own fault and its not. Depression is an illness just like the flu. Humans get sick because of the fall of humanity at the beginning of humanity. People sin, so people get sick. Different illness are not a result of one person’s individual sin, but the result of what humans as a whole are in nature. And even though people sin, they should not for one reason think that it is their fault that they have some sort of imbalance of chemicals in their brain. There is such a stigma around mental health that so many people do not want to talk about it. They don’t want to acknowledge that it is a real thing. There are people who say that having depression is a lack of faith and that getting right with God will fix all of your problems. Trusting God is a big thing, but that will not solve the fact that he are flawed in nature. And try as we might, we will never be perfect, and sometimes our mental illness are what hinder us from being what we want to be. 

God is sovereign and can use a person with depression just as he can use someone with a not so imbalanced brain. I am hurting for everyone that is hurting. I don’t even want to imagine the thoughts going on in my persons head right now. There are so many resources to get help and still people are so afraid of what others will think that they let themselves get so deep that they make a choice they cannot undo. 

Please, I am begging you, if you need to get help, do it. I can chat with anyone that may need help. Ive got you all. I will gladly take care of you and help you out. tweet me @huntermerck or if you have my number, text me. please. 

Also, there are some important resources that you should take advantage of. 


Check out the following websites and numbers if you or someone you know is  struggling or you want to learn more.

US Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1 (800) 273-8255