So, it's Sunday morning and I am still in the bed. 

My friends asked me if I was going to church, I shouted no (from my bed, of course). BUT I decided I should read my Bible, and as always, I was not disappointed.

I don't know how many people know this, but I want to be a missionary. Except, I also want to have a real job that I can use my degree in. It's very important to me that my degree is not going to waste. 

With that being said, I read in Philippians this morning. Verses 12-18 of chapter 1 are Paul writing about rejoicing in the fact that Jesus is gaining glory from his hardships. Now, most people would get "its ok that i am going through a hard time because jesus will get me out of it and this is for him." Now for what I got out of this, I almost cried. V. 14 says, "and most of the brothers, having become confident in the Lord by my imprisonment, are much more bold to speak the word without fear." Because of Paul, there were people all over that weren't afraid of the consequences of telling the world that Jesus is Lord. Even seeing that Paul was in prison, they saw how strong his faith was and that made them want to tell the good news.

The reason I almost cried: I have no idea what the future is going to bring me, but I only have two more years of college left (two seems like a lot, but the first two flew by and I may be panicking). Even though I have no idea what I am doing, I am confident in the fact that God has laid out every step of the way for me and I know that whatever I end up doing, wherever in the world it is, I cannot wait to proclaim that Jesus is Lord. Like, can we just think about that. No matter what I am doing, I'm going to be able to tell people that and hopefully they can look at my life and know that I am confident in what I'm telling them. 

It's crazy that my once very superficial career goals have turned into something so much more meaningful and knowing that makes me want to future to go ahead and get here.